bebetula

Hmmm tricky…

I don’t really have enough experience to have a ‘type’, like I don’t have a typical preference to hair colour or anything… I rarely meet guys, and even then I don’t always like them in that way…

I’d have to say they’d intelligent and confident, someone’s who sure of themselves and willing to make a move, or make the effort.. And humours really important to me (I know its cliche, but its true).

I guess the guy I’ve ever been most attracted to was those things, although he was also rather cocky and his confidence bordered on arrogant… He was tall, very tall in fact, with dark hair and dark eyes and ever so slightly drool worthy in my eyes, he had a really strong jaw line… O and I love cheekbones :)

Well technically my first boyfriend was this guy I met through a mutual friend, who’d had a very tough time when he was younger - he had cancer. He was kind, sweet and funny, but awkwardly so, and although I hate to admit it, it was a little bit of a sympathy relationship on my part… He was extremely sweet, but for me there were points when it bordered on too much so, and it made me feel awkward, and guilty that he appeared so much more into me than I was him… It didn’t last very long, and I wish I’d been nicer to him, and I apologised, albeit extremely late for how I treated him. I met him again a year ago, and needless to say it was extremely awkward, partially because he was shoving his tongue down some girls throat in front of me…

I dream of being happy, maybe married, maybe not, but I’d really like children. I can see myself with two girls, but maybe that’s only because I’m one of two girls.. but I like the name Rosa Mae, and if I have a boy I’d like to call him Isaac or Luke :)

I dream of fully enjoying things, and learning not to stress too much, and to be more apologetic and forgiving… I want to be more free, and not care as much sometimes, I dream of getting a tattoo and some more piercings, if only to prove that I can…

I want to travel… Go to the Princess Islands off the coast of Vancouver to see White Spirit bears :) and go to Rio de Janeiro during carneval time…

I want to do a job I love, but I also want to live somewhere busy and exciting with things to do, like London, or San Francisco maybe. But then I guess I can’t be too picky about jobs… I don’t want to live in my sister’s shadow I guess..

I dream of completing my bucket list, and trying all sorts of things, if only once, to experience the most I can…

And I dream about having a parrot called Bruce, a Great Dane called Portia, and two Persian cats called Sampson and Delilah :)

yeah im trying to do it gently, dont want to lose him as a friend or anything.. plus i’ve known him forever, and i thought i’d made myself clear…

haha how come what? that i have such a massive queue? or that im mildly confused and irritated? well a) i just prefer it cause i never know when im not going to be able to post, and b) just because my best guy friends saying he needs a girlfriend, and saying stuff that just makes me feel a bit awkward about it all because i only see him as a friend… and thank you oh anonymous one :)

haha fair enough :) you would assume correctly, im in a fairly good mood, mildly irritated and confused on some aspects, but other than that yeah… though my posts that are currently being posted have been in my queue for roughly 10/14 days :)

in a strange way they do, i post whatever my mood reflects, so if i’m feeling down for whatever reason, they tend to be sadder pictures.. but i use my queue a lot, so there tends to be a bit of a delay in how im feeling and what im posting if that makes sense…

am i allowed to ask why?

hmm pretty much anything you like really :)